Okay so I'm at the school library right now. It's kind of boring but I'm just waiting for lunch break so that I can do the rest of my English homework...
Like I said I gotta drop one English class at the very least, but whatever. I'll probably publish this when I'm home.
Home. Such a subjective term. I thought I'd never feel at home here and yet I almost do. I refer to a house I moved into on Sunday as home, but truly home is Germany. Rottach. The house I grew up in.
Well what do they say? Home is where your heart is? Home is where people care about you? I don't remember.

I'm officially in my second English class but substitutes never really care what you do so whatever.
Before at the end of period 4, my AP English class, Ms. Salamon actually signed my copy of her book. It was so nice, 'For Barbara "Wonderful exchange student" Happy Reading'.
The book(The Prairie Bridesmaid) is pretty good too, a very easy to read page-turner, but I think I already said that didn't I?
She's a supernice teacher too, but I totally hate all the homework she assigns. Wayyyyyyyyyyyyy too much. Anyway I still like her writing.
Check out her website and the website of the book up there in my links section!
Get a copy, it's really good.

Just another day in my life

I check facebook anyway. Yes I know there can't be a new message since I would have gotten an email. But until now there was at least a quint essence of hope. It's gone now though.
My friend doesnt responds at all either. Crap. She'd be the only one that could answer my questions. Why the fuck did I have to chose a X-men comic for my comic assignment at school. I could have gone with something I at least faintly know.

I'm scratching my head. There is something, in my hair... Ewww... That's disgusting, some dried in blood. How did that get there?!
Nevermind, I have bigger concerns: Get new shoes, a 2-page essay, an edit of an essay, another essay, questions to a book and a handwritten 1 page responds to something I've forgotten... All till tomorrow while at the same time I'm supposed to memorize part of some weird play for drama.
Mental note to self: Drop drama or AP English or English Comp. SOON!

Also had a history test today. Boy, I screwed that one up I think. I didn't really find time to study for it. At all.
Oh well.
Janette was just here, she's supernice. She's my host sister I think. So yeah she's cool.

I really do need new shoes though, since these old, old trainers of mine literally fell apart on my walk home from school XD.
I love them though. I still need new ones. I just so don't have time to get any today, for christ's sake I still got those stupid essays.

TV - the major distraction

Oh boy I just discovered that Sex and the City is on. That is just more interesting that any essay I could ever write.
I could never have kids. The screaming. The crying. The yelling, I'd hate it. And pregnancy for 9 months sounds even worse to me. However the guys are hot.Oh boy being 40+, single and living in busy New York seems so much more interesting than being 19 and German.
On the other hand, it's so confusing. Poor Carrie, Aiden just blocked an attempt of her to get back together again.
Sure I like Mr. Big better - who doesn't? - but boy it's so sad.

Mh I wonder if it would be a good idea to talk to the person I like... Could it hurt? I'm this far away and if I don't want to I probably wouldn't even see him again. But then again, it could destroy our friendship. Why didn't I at least kiss him?
Oh right -- he smoked. And he has a beard.
But still his eyes... his tickling at the back of my neck... his soft caress.
Why do we always have to grow up? Develope feelings for the other gender. Boys are just way too complicated.

I feel like Aiden. I wish I had that freedom to just yell at him.
Oh boy... Is it just a fluke? I only seen him three times.
Women tend to romantize, am I right now? Oh boy Sex and the City sucks. It always makes me think and write like Carrie in her colum. I wish I would be more like Sam.

That first episode of Sex and the City made me love her, having sex like a man sounds the best thing. No emotions. No bonds. No consequences.

On a sunday I'll think it through

So I'm supposed to do homework.
Of course I am not, I'm rather writing this blog.

So what's there new and exciting in my life? Scratch the exciting but there's still not that much.
So since I've been skipping practise the whole week I was kicked off the Cheerleading team. Whatever, I took up way too much time anyway. Now I went shopping and just hung out with my friends. Finally able to socialize and taking full advantage of it.

Somehow listening to 'Manic Monday' doesn't get my mood up either. I just love weekends but mondays are such a drag. Anyway I'm reading 'The Prairie Bridesmaid by Daria Salamon right now - the same chick that makes me make a kite for 11th grade AP English. It's a good, funny page turner though. I really do like it.
I wonder if she'll be okay with my excuse for handing a essay in late saying something along the lines of 'Your book was so catchy I couldn't put it down so I spent all weekend reading it instead of doing my homework'. I don't think she'll go for that.
Worth a try though.

Yeah that's what I'm listening to now while I'm writing this. Thank god for Cher.
Her music has helped me through homesickness and entertained me during very crappy hours over here. Especially when I felt alone.
That song always gets me in a good mood and I really feel like watching that movie right now. It's such a chick flick.
I'm not a typical chick I found out. Basically just a guy with boobs. At least that's what I was told over here just because I care more about CDs, DVDs and books than clothes and make up. -rolls eyes-
Whatever... I just take it as a compliment. At least I'm halfway good at school. Talking about school I should really study for that Western Civ test that we got tomorrow. Right now the Extravaganza forum is way too distracting. I got three essays to write and one fucking test to study for... I mean I do one some free time! I never did much homework back home. Why should I start now?!

Shopping with Paulette yesterday was fun, it really was. I like her and she's someone pretty easygoing. Yeah I hate rules but you all know that, don't ya? =P
Before that I hung out with Lisa. I don't even remember what we did, just that we spent wayyyyyyyy too much money.

Anyway I really gotta get some work done now.

Braindead

Yeah that's about how I feel right now. The last few days have been overwhelming.

After all this hectic and stress this damned M&M bag won't open! UGH! Thank god there's ALWAYS my swiss pocket knife in my purse. Yay me! So now I can get started with the actual blog, energy drink, m&ms and music(by Cher! Who else?!)

Soooo.... now I don't know what to write anymore. Oh yeah I moved on Sunday to Paulette, nice lady!
I still have to go to school - hope none of my teachers is gonna read this but - I wrote part of this blog on Tuesday during 4th and 5th period lol:

- pause in blog, trying to find that sheet of paper -

'So I'm in my AP Engish class right now. Boring. Big time. Writing an outline, a draft and then a paper is so pointless.
The last few days were pretty exciting , but that's why I'm writing this in class and typing it up later.
Thanksgiving was one big laugh!! Pauette's fam is HILARIOUS!!! The food was pretty good too. I had a blast. Sunday was exhausting. Wait actually--
the dinner was on Sunday, right after I moved from the Fenn's to Pauette. Yesterday, - yes that was Thanksgiving now - I went shopping with Paulette and her friend. It was nice. Amost overslept for school today though lol. Got up at 7.47... Well whatever.
Gonna pick up my book today, I'm still trying to find someone to go to KPwith me... I don't know'

At the end I went alone to pick up my Burlesque book but that was ok. Loved the intro by Cher and all the pics other than that pretty lame.
Paulette is home now. I'm watching 'And the beat goes on - The Sonny and Cher story' now. And I got sidetracked.

Anyway random things I don't wanna forget:

-Our teacher cried reading the KiteRunner out loud
-We gotta make Kites in an AP English class(WTF?!)
-We actually learn about comics in school
-Drama rocks and Ms Donald loves the Glass Menagerie by Tennessee Williams

Drinking an Energy drink at 11 pm was not one of my smarter ideas... Well that's me, at least I'll be up to finish this blog.
Oh I also found the perfect(!) present for Sarah's birthday. Yep that's right I don't forget days like that. I'm really looking forward to Halloween even though I'm too old for trick or treating. Maybe a couple of good movies will be on.

Got report cards in English too and my lowest score is a 80% for an essay which I whipped up during lunch. I'm so happy about that, even though it could have been better. But then again there was also the f word in it... and I mentioned Scarface. And abortion. Well ok maybe it wasn't that school appropriate.
Tomorrow Miriam and I are gonna hang out after school, I don't know what we'll do yet but I'm sure it'll be fun!

My first post

Yeah very creative title I know. But I'm just too lazy to write the same kind of journal in every E-mail - whether in German(Fam, friends, teacher) or English(Chatfriends) - again and again so here you have it.
Guess if you have this link this means I'm tired of writing but you still get to know what I'm doing. Ha!
Of course I'll do this maybe 2 or 3 days long and then forget about it or grow tired of it. As usual I'm already late with this blog since I'm here for the 5th week by now. Whatever...

Well good thing for you, right now I'm not. Don't think we have homework and I'm just taking a break from packing.
For those who don't know yet, I'm changing host families. Well it was my wish since this host mum here has been going through my personal stuff while I wasn't here. Not even my own mother could do that without having me utterly pissed at her, but a stranger... no that's too much. I'll miss the dad and the dog though. The siblings were kind of cool too...
So yes diary is the only thing I write in German right now.

For those who don't have my facebook page added, here's a picture of my Canada stay.

I like it here so far. Guess what? I, who missed like a third of classes 8, 9 and 10th actually likes school over here. The teachers I have to deal with are pretty laid-back and cool. Like really I do like them.

Cheerleading is kind of a pain in the ass - yes I've complained to all of you about this before but ugh. Till 6 pm! After an early dismissal. I was just like what the fuck?!

-takes deep breath-

Sorry for that, I could get all worked up right away again.

For all those who know me, I'm not too fond of the no alcohol and no clubbing rule. For christ's sake you aren't able to do anything here. Just childish stuff like going to the zoo... and then I got yelled at for saying that that was childish. -.-'

Men? Eh... besides the fact that I can't stop thinking about a very special, dear person right now there are really no handsome guys. I mean most young teachers are pretty hot. And married. Compared to what else is available the teachers seem the most handsome ones.

So just bug me to update through emails if you have to but don't expect me to write this length in a personalized email.

Gotta pack again now. How fun...